rachel13

I don’t know how to find motivation. I am completely done with school and now have work and my internship. But I have so much more time for myself. How do I get off my ass though to workout? I’m feeling like a lazy bum. It sucks! And I keep eating really crappy as well.  I have got to start getting into shape and losing weight again. It’s been a couple of weeks since I have actually lost lost weight.  So, I need to kick it into gear! Maybe if I start planning out each day when I’ll workout and what I’ll eat each day. Hopefully that will work out better and I’ll be losing weight again.  What do you think guys?

I am learning to have more control over my life and my bad habits. It feels good to know when I am having a temptation that I have control over what I do about the temptation.  If I just wait it out, it goes away and I’m better.  I just need to learn to not give in to the bad habits that use to intrude in my life!  It’s an amazing feeling that I am losing weight again.  I can’t wait until I get down below 200. 8 lbs to go. Getting excited! I am extremely energized and ready to start exercising more.  Starting to do 3o Day Shred and do the Wii Biggest Loser again.  Exercise will definitely help in the weighloss process!~

So, these past couple of weeks have been rough for me.  Whenever I am with my family, I tend to go back to my old habits and eat crappy. It’s like they are triggers for me.  Now, I’m not going to avoid my family.  I just need to learn to not eat what they eat… I really want to do this. I really want to feel good about myself and I can do it, I just wish that I had more support.  I love this website but I wish I had more support actually here with me.  I wish I was able to recruit more people but I can’t force people. Ya know what I mean?  It just bums me out. I’m stressed about finals and I just want to get through the next two weeks and start working out hard this summer.  I know I can lose the weight that I want to lose. I mean, I’m only 9 lbs away from 200. That’s awesome! I can’t wait for the day when I go below 200. What an amazing day that will be!? Well,  I hope everyone is doing great and have an awesome week.  Stay Healthy!

Well, the last week wasn’t so pretty for me. I ate whatever I wanted to and it didn’t sit well with me either.  I had a lot of stomach aches and felt disgusting after I ate large portions of foods.  It just showed me that my body doesn’t want to be like that anymore.  I am back on track though starting this week.  I had a great day yesterday. I got in 5 fruits and veggies and kept my calories at 1200. I didn’t get to weigh-in this morning because I slept in a little too late and didn’t have time to get on the scale but I will for sure weigh-in tomorrow morning and post my new weight.  School is going to be done in a couple of weeks and I will have so much more time to exercise and not worry about homework. I’ll be able to just live instead of being consumed with work, class, and homework.  It gets to be excessive!! But anyhoo, I’m feeling great about losing weight again and I want to get back on track and start losing again.  My best friend’s 21st birthday is June 16th and I definitely want to look good when I go back to my hometown to see everyone again.  They’ve seen me at my heaviest and I want to show them that I can lose it and get back to healthy “ME” again!  Thanks for all your support.

Hello all my fellow Buddy Slimmers! I had an amazing day yesterday when it comes to my dieting.  Kept my calories at 1200 and still felt full all day which was awesome.  I have been having the worst week other than that! My computer repairs are totally $200 and there are some family issues so being able to stick to my diet during rough times has been an eye opener for me.  I’m glad that I haven’t delved into emotional eating like I would’ve in the past.  It just goes to show that I am a new ME!! And I can do this through the good and the bad times.  I know that I still have 14 pounds until 200 but I would love to get there by me and my boyfriend’s five year anniversary on May 3rd. I know it’s a long shot and it probably won’t happen but that’s what I am going to shoot for! Well, I need to get back to my school work since I can only do it on the school computers and I have work this afternoon. I hope you all have a wonderful day!

Well, I have to admit that I didn’t lose as much weight as I wanted to this past week. 2.2 lbs…. But that’s okay. It’s still weightloss which makes me happy. I was stressed out with some family issues that were going on which made me eat more at Easter to calm down. I truly am one of those people that uses food as comfort and I need to control that! But I have been working really hard to stay on top of that.  My worst habit is coming home after a long day of work and classes and immediately wanting to eat because my stomach is growling and I’m all dizzy.  But, I just need to get supper prepared and not snack during. That’s the thing with me… I know what my faults and bad habits are, I just need to work harder at changing them. Exercise is something that I really want to fit back into my life. Right now, I work 40 hours a week and I have a full credit load which doesn’t give me a lot of extra time and the time I do have is spent on homework and studying. SO…. I’m hoping that when school is done in the beginning of May, I’ll be able to get back on the right path.  I’ll be doing the Biggest Loser Wii Workout again which really helped last time. And I’ll be doing Jillian’s 30 Day Shred because that honestly kicks my ass everytime I do it.  :)  So, that’s my plan and I’m hoping I stick to it.  12 lbs doesn’t sound like much but it feels good knowing that I have lost that much.  I hope that I’ll be able to see a difference within the next month.  I know people say that you should feel your clothes fitting loser and you just feel skinnier. I haven’t gotten there yet but I’m hoping it will come :)… I hope you all have a great rest of your week.

Healthy Healthy!! This is what I want to be! I am on the right road now.  I am losing weight and it makes me feel great.  I am down ten pounds total and it feels great. I honestly don’t feel any different yet but I have heard that it takes a little while. Which is totally fine with me. I am in this for the long haul. I absolutely can’t wait for that moment I am under 200 again. Wow, what an accomplishment that will be.  YAY!! It makes me smile just thinking about it.  I love being healthy and eating better. There is nothing that can make me feel this good. I hope everyone has an amazing Easter!  Eat healthy and I’ll see you back on the blog on Monday!

Well, I found a high school friend that wanted to join in on my weightloss journey with me.  We decided to weigh-in every Wednesday morning and we are shooting for 2-3 lbs. every week. I lost 4 lbs. but that’s because I’m still losing water weight and I have a lot of weight to lose! So, I am extremely excited about that.  Losing weight and seeing results gets me extremely motivated. I just added some new buddies today that inspired me because I always feel so happy and determined after I leave the buddlyslim website. It’s awesome! When I go home for Easter this weekend, I am going to get my bike ready and bring it back to my apartment with me. I live right near a lake and I plan to bike around it most days of the week. I am just so excited to continue on my journey.  Today is going to be positive and healthy!

I am back on track and feeling incredibly good about it.  I have lost 3.4 pounds in the last couples of days but I’m guessing that’s me just shedding off my water weight which is just fine with me.  Pounds are pounds in my book.  I’m hoping to get back down to the 211 that I had been at before break and keep pushing to get past my mini goal of 200 pounds. Wow, will that be an amazing accomplishment. I just can’t wait!  I have a friend that is trying to lose weight as well so we decided to set weekly goals with each other.  Hold each other accountable which will help out a lot! It’s nice having someone else there who doesn’t want to sabotage your committment to losing weight.  I feel good lately. I wish I had more time to exercise but I work full time with a full time credit load for college as well.  So, until I can get caught back up in school and get my life back under control, I’m going to mainly concentrate on the food side of losing weight. I can do it, and I will do it!!

I was just sitting here thinking about how I have struggled with my weight for the last 3 years. Gaining a total of 50 pounds after high school.  My body is outrageous. And I feel disappointed in myself that I let it get this far.  I feel disgusted when I look at my body in the mirror. Taking a shower literally makes me cry because I actually can see what my body looks like. I never want to get dressed up or look cute anymore. I always throw on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt and that’s it. I want to feel cute. I want to feel better about myself. I want to get healthy. I want to be able to run to catch up to the bus without feeling like I’m going to vomit and pass out.  It’s just pathetic. I don’t know. I’m just on a total downer right now and I need to find a way to pick myself up again.  I need to find inspiration. I need to find me again.